First of all what a crazy weekend at my job, but at least it was good, it always is a blast to work with people you like, because if not then you get to despise them. What is a good thing to know is what kind of friends you can and cannot count on. I have some really cool friends, that I know when times are tough they help me get out of any blue mood I am in. I mean I literally still have to adjust but I am almost there, I see things a little clearer now. As I was at my job last night polishing plates with this persian girl I work with, she told me that I would be a dream date, and I said to her, I just got out of an abusive relationship and that I really wasn't looking for anything, she told me you need some one to treat you like a god. I thought about that for a moment and realized, is there someone out there like this, and can you find someone in the gay community that really isn't a drinker or into drugs, and someone that I can completely trust. I feel there are good guys out there, so yes I know that we all have had some sort of experience of finding someone out there who was or what we thought the one for us, but sometimes you just can't see clear enough to all the warning signs that make them not really for you, so now my eyes are focused and the rose colored glasses are off so I can see now, thank God.
The beat goes on I guess they say, I am moving forward with the hope of meeting prince charming one day, and not his evil step brother. LOL. Oh well. One thing I do know is that I don't need someone to complete me, I feel that I am the most important thing to me, that it would have to be someone to compliment me than complete me, but I feel that we are all searching for someone special in our lives to wake up to in the morning and know that with them the day will go a lot smoother by your side.
I get to this page in my life where I think about these couples that last forever like my maternal grandma and grandfather, I just hope that I am lucky enough to share with someone what they had, a great friendship and a loving family, and most of all what I think is complete happiness.